This week I’m going to do a little something different. I’m trying to get myself back in the writing mode and I’ve decided that in order to do that maybe I should just pay more attention to all the things I used to write and see where that takes me.
I went back through anything I had saved and realized that I haven’t sat down and written anything of my own since April 2008- and that’s just far too long! Over two years and I’m not very happy with myself for that.
So here I am nervous as can be -and I really am nervous I don’t share these things very often- about sharing my last/latest work. I hope you enjoy it!
I’d Like
I’d like to sit beside you
and tell you all the things
I can’t tell anyone else.
All the things I’m so scared of,
the things I wish I never knew
the songs I wish that I could sing
and the things I think about while washing my hair in the morning.
I’d like to lay beside you
and show you all broken parts of me
I know nobody wants to see.
All of the chaos in my mind,
the stolen innocences
the lost possibilities
and the scared little girl I hide.
I’d like to sit beside you
and tell you all the things
I’ve always hidden from everyone else.
All the ways I hurt myself so that no one could ever hurt me first,
the dreams I have each night
the choices I’ve made I shouldn’t have
and the energy I spend pretending to be happy with the life I lead.
I’d like to lay beside you
and show you all the things
I have to hide from everyone else.
All the love I have to give,
the truth inside of me
the reality of who I am
and the part of me that longs to be taken care of.
I’d like to sit beside you
and tell you all the things you do
that keep you on my mind.
All the ways you make me laugh,
the way you make me feel like I mean more than I thought I might
the nervous way you run your hand through your hair when you look at me
the way just sitting across the room from you can warm me like a fire,
and the way your voice runs through my brain down to my toes and fills me up like nothing else.
I’d like to lay beside you
and say nothing.
So there you have it- my first time sharing anything I’ve written in a very long time and I hope you all enjoyed it! Thanks so much for reading this week!
